Di ko Gets Bagets

Kids nowadays are so into romantic stuffs. Take for instance my little brother na grade six pa lang ngayon ay kung anu-ano ang pinagsasabi sakin tungkol sa love. Na dapat daw kasi bawasan ko ang katarayan ko para hindi matakot ang mga boys, na dapat daw learn to appreciate the simple things that guys do, na kailangan daw na mas maging transparent ako, at kung anu-ano pang ka-echusan ng kapatid ko.

Na windang naman ako sa kanya. Tatanungin ko sana kung saan nya naman nakuha iyong mga iyon kaso umalis na at may pupuntahan daw. Chus, if I know magnenet na naman para i-chat sa facebook iyong crush nya na ilang lakaran lang naman ang layo ng bahay mula sa amin. Haynaku lang. Garbe. As in garbe na talaga ang mga bagets, hindi ko na sila magets! Well, hindi pa naman ako sobrang matanda (haha.. sabay ganun) pero kasi sa pagkakaalala ko noong grade six ako all I cared for ay ang paglalaro; panunuod ng cartoons; pagtambay sa bahay; at matulog.

Wala pa sa akin iyang kras - kras na iyan. Masaya na talaga ako dati sa anime (hehe). Pero ngayon kahit saan ka magpunta at kahit sinong bata ang tanungin mo, aba, ang dami nang alam tungkol dyan sa crush at sa love. Siguro bunga na rin ito nang impluwensya ng media. Siguro pati narin ng globalization (naks! Ano daw?).

Pero seryoso, sa tingin ko ang lahat nang ito ay hindi maganda para sa murang isip ng mga bata. Bakit? Kasi at their age dapat hindi muna nila iniisip iyong mga ganyang grown-up things. Ang dapat sa kanila ay ini-enjoy muna ang pagkabata. Kasama na dito ang paglalaro, pagsasaya, at pangangarap. Kasi pagtanda nila mahirap nang balikan ang mga iyon. Kapag kasi adult ka na doon na mararanasan ang mawalan na nang oras para maglaro, para mag-enjoy. Mararanasan na rin dito ang sobrang masaktan o kaya ay mawasak o mawalan na nang ganang mangarap. Kapag bata kasi daw kasi kadalasan idealist pa, kapag matanda na realist na. 

Kaya nga sinasabi ko sa kapatid ko na huwag magmadali, na he will be an adult rin naman, na ang dapat nyang gawin ngayon ay i-enjoy ang pagkabata. Pero syempre, dahil sa matigas ang ulo ng kapatid ko at dahil na rin siguro sa kadalasang iniisip ng mga bata na kapag matanda na ay they can do whatever they want, hindi nakikinig sya nakikinig sa akin. Gusto na raw nya lumaki kaagad para magawa niya ito, magawa nya iyan. Hay, ewan. Minsan gusto ko na rin sumuko at pabayaan sya, pero syempre hindi pwede. I just hope na with my constant reminder ay maiintindihan at marealize nya iyong sense ng mga sinasabi ko. 

Petition: New Time Slot

Call it being selfish or whatsoever, I do not care! I still do not want to change my schedule just to give way to other people's schedules. Okay lang sana kung la epek sa schedule ko, pero meron eh. If agree to go for Wed or Fri, wala na akong lunch break. If I will go for Mon, wala na akong whole day vacant time. I'm planning pa naman to make Monday my ultimate thesis day. Well, of course, another reason is that tinatamad na akong magpapalit-palit pa ng schedule. I have done this a lot of times and I know how frustrating it is just to do it again. Kaya ayaw ko. 

Well, if course, if the majority of the class would go for it then, go na din ako pero Monday lang talaga. I'd rather go to school five times a week than miss lunch because I allowed it to be set on Friday.

-Certified Brattinela

Chaka Mo!

I believe that everyone is selfish, that underneath all help we give to other people it will always turn out that we are doing it not for them but for ourselves. For instance, you are helping our unfortunate brothers and sisters through charity. You are not actually doing it for them but for yourself, why? Because you want to feel good about yourself that is why. Another is that you are not just taking care of your body because it is the temple of the Holy Spirit or because it is a gift given to you and therefore, you must take good care of it. You are treating your body with such care because at the back of your mind, you know that if you do so people will start to notice you, adore you, and like you. Also, to those people who give extreme compliments to other people, let us face it... you are doing that not because you truly mean everything you are saying but because you also wanted to be given a good comment. 

Why am I saying this? Well, here is why...

I received a message this morning from someone who is asking to help a friend find a dormitory. At first I was kinda pissed. It is because I do not have any plans on staying outside and exposing my skin to sunlight. It's really hot outside, you know. I can just imagine what I would be like after the long walks I've done going from here to there looking for a dormitory for someone I do not even know personally, I'd be so maitim na siguro. But kindness prevails, so pumayag ang Lola mo at mamaya ay maghahanap na ng dorm. Hays.

But you know what, it is not about pure kindness that led me to say yes to that request. It was also because of the reason that I wanna feel good about myself knowing that I have done good to people who need my help. I guess it will be a win-win situation after all. 

A Night Alone

Yes, alone, finally. 

Well, I really kinda miss this; the knowledge that the room is all yours for the taking, the silence and the darkness of the night. For days I have been longing for these things to happen and now here they are. It felt nice. 

There are so many thoughts running in my mind right now.There are so many things I wanna say, majority of which are nonsense things that I wanna share but would rather not. Anyway, this entry is just all about how I feel tonight. Just like I said earlier, it felt nice to be alone but at the same time sad. Sad not because I do not have anyone to talk to, sad because of the fact that I am alone. 

Confuse?

You see, there are times that talking is not important. That just knowing that someone is there for you or beside you, even if you are not talking to each other, is enough. That is why I am sad. Yes, I like the silence, yes I like the darkness but being totally alone. I wanted to have someone to be there for me. Someone who would listen to all of my rants and my non-stop talking. Someone who could get along with all my mood swings and trips. 

Someone.